Yet I forgot the opinion that mattered most—my opinion of myself.
Forget everyone else for a moment and truly focus on yourself. Like a typical elementary-age child, I never worked up the courage to tell him my feelings.
I couldn’t understand why dating an overweight girl like me would interest anybody.
There was no way that he could like me in that way.
I regularly dreamed of telling him how I felt, but I was too self-conscious and nervous.
I didn’t build up the courage to tell him until over a year after we met. My questions danced between two topics: did he know I liked him, and was it possible for him to like me, or someone like me—a fat girl. I wasn’t being subtle and yet he had made no counter-move.
Loving yourself is the first step to finding somebody else to love you. I imagined myself walking up to him and telling him how I felt, though I never turned those dreams into reality. I had a handful of crushes in the past, but I was going to encounter a beast I had no clue how to handle: a potential crush on .